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:::Sunday, May 22, 2005:::
Wow.... I can hardly imagine... its my 1st posting since july 2004... and now what...its nearly halfway into 2005... hmmm a year has passed... and Im almost done with my liabilities to Singapore soon..
Worries about my future.. worries about my studies(if there is), worries about row.., worries about my family, worries about myself, guilty about some past, irritated about alot of stuff.
I have lots in mind... but cant seem to find the light ahead of me.. sighz..
Sometimes really wish I'm not around in this place.. only get to see struggles.. and rich get richer.. poor get poorer. Some people just never get to understand the feeling of being down... either too rich, enjoying life or too rich thus having no worries.
Life is just like lying on a bed of roses.... those rich and influential people will only get to feel the soft beautiful petals of the rose flower... while poor and unimportant people like me will get to taste the pricks of the thorns. People up there will never get to understand how it feels down.
Maybe when im successful next time... *i really want to be* I will think likewise too... but now.. all I see in this damn world is a place where faggots live.. faggots that are good for nothing, abusive of authority and $. Faggots that dun deserve to live. Hope someone rids the world of them... forever, ever.
think im going nuts writing all these... im tired... really tired...
im yet to taste success... no $ no power... yet others at my age are rich and influential... what am I? another faggot?

...S@YS Me!

posted by * ZhUo*ChOnGjI< * 2:41 AM

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:::Wednesday, April 07, 2004:::
His Love....

For our joy.. He cried..
For our acceptance..He was rejected
For our peace..He suffered
For our life..He died
Not that He needs to...but He wants to...
All for His Love for us.

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Thank God for the many good movies that been showing on cinemas around the island this month... From the fomous 'The Passion' to 'The Gospel of John', God made use of these 2 movies to remind us of His love for us.

Though some scenes from 'The Passion' I do not understand... but overall its still ok... though i would prefer it to emphasis more on other things rather than all on the pain n suffering that Jesus went through....Not that I dun agreed wif the movie's point of view...but..maybe it focus too much on a particular point?

Thank God for this week... had a nice time off from work on Monday and spent a great time wif Ro, lazing ard..relaxing. Been considering taking up a part time degree...but not too sure whether the time will suit me or not... God..help mi make a good decision~!
Big bang coming... hope alot of new friends come and visit.. hmm wat else.... feel so sleepy now...Yawnz....
Thank God For Everything~!

...S@YS Me!

posted by * ZhUo*ChOnGjI< * 4:29 PM

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:::Thursday, April 01, 2004:::
Fatal Family Resemblances
My Grandpa John lost his hair -- not all of it, but enough to expose a sizeable portion of the top of his head. Then there was my dad, faithfully following in his father's footsteps. He was bald in most of the same spots that his dad was. Hello third generation! My forehead seems to be growing. Now behind me are two sons with great hair - for now. But the other day in church, our Pastor said something unsettling. He said, "One day you get up in the morning and look in the mirror and suddenly there is someone else there". You are looking at someone a lot like your father. I glanced down the pew at Brad, he had this anxious look on his face as he felt his forehead and checked his hair.

It's true we all know about family resemblance, whether it's hair, or height, or face, or cholesterol, metabolism, or even health problems, but there are family resemblances that are less obvious and much more damaging. They damage our marriage, our kids, our close relationships, our future, our worth. We pick up from our parents ways of talking and acting that we didn't like in them, and suddenly we hear ourselves sounding like Mom or Dad -- treating others as our parents did, reacting, communicating, living as they did in ways we never meant to repeat. Of course, if we are parents, we are marking another generation who will have to go through the same pain we have unless something changes which seems unlikely.

If we could change some of these things, we would have by now. It's almost as if there's this man or woman we would like to be, that we need to be, and then there's this person we really are. There's a hugh gap in between.

Well, here's good news from our Heavenly Father. Our word for today from the Word of God comes from 2 Peter 1:18. It says this, "Christ has redeemed us from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers with the precious blood of Christ".

Did you hear that word "redeemed"? That's a hope word. You and I don't have to be what our parents were and maybe all the generations before that. These family germs can stop in your generation, but not with your power. There's a six-letter word that bridges that gap between the person you want to be and the person you are: SAVIOR -- a rescuer from this spiritual cancer called sin. It's not so much the breaking of some religious rules. It's much deeper than that. It's the issue of who's really God in your life. See we've made the choice Frank Sinatra sings about - I'll do it my way. And that's led to thousands of little and big choices that have ignored God's way and made us slaves to the dark side of us. But there's a Savior and our redeeming has something to do with the shedding of His innocent blood on that cross. I Peter 2:24, a little later in this same book, explains it. It says, "He bore our sins in his own body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness". He took the power and the penalty and the pain of every sin on Himself. It means you can be forgiven, every sin erased from God's book. The beginning of your liberation. It means you can be changed. As the Bible says, "you can be a new creation in Christ".

I have experienced it. Thousands I've known have experienced it. What we could never change, Jesus has been able to miraculously transform. If you were to give yourself to this Jesus today, you could finally say of all that sin baggage, "It stops here. It's hurt me long enough. It's hurt enough people." You would have the power of the only Man who ever conquered death, changing you from the inside out. If you want to be sure you belong to Him, let me know via e-mail and I'll send you a little booklet. It's called "Steps to Peace With God".

The physical family resemblance is like Dad's baldness - well I can't offer you much hope on those But where we really need hope is on the kind of person we are on the inside and there's a powerful Savior for that. You can stop those ugly family sins so that no one in your family will ever have to look like that again.

- Article from soul purpose.

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Been a while since I last update my blog... ermmm sorry for the delay. Everythings been fine for me.. Thank God for that.. but been rather tiring.. especially in the mind these days..stress i suppose. But I thank god for his assuring touch and Ro in my life.
The Passion of The Christ is showing this week... I pray that thru this film...many will be able to understand more of God. I oso pray that my friends will be able to make it?
These days been thinking through abt what God wants me to do in my life... its been years.. and yet I still come to a coclusion of what am I suppose to do.. what God really wants. It like theres so much so much things going thru my mind all the time...many many diff ideas.. diff views.. I just pray that God give mi a clear direction where I should head. God... make use of these 2 years in NS to plan my path...that by the time I finish Ns...everything will be very clearcut to me... whether I should study,work or whatever... let it be decided way before i finish NS.

...S@YS Me!

posted by * ZhUo*ChOnGjI< * 7:18 PM

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:::Saturday, March 13, 2004:::
Free Behind the Fence

A village was situated on a hilltop. Surrounding it was a fence, which covered a fairly large perimeter. The fence had only one gate through which the villagers moved in and out. It kept the citizens in and kept strangers out. Houses had no doors because people trusted one another. The fence also kept children from falling off sharp cliffs. Little ones were free to play in the open fields. The community was busy and there was much laughter and joy. One day at a village council meeting, some people complained that the fence was restrictive. They felt they could not roam freely. Others disagreed. After many days of hot debate and deliberation, the council finally decided to tear down the perimeter fence.

When it was removed, the village changed significantly. Strangers came to the village and many things were reported stolen from homes. People began to build doors to safeguard their property. They became less trusting and open. Some boys almost fell off a cliff while at play. Parents began to forbid their children to go outside. The village became much quieter and no laughter was heard in the fields.

We often think that freedom means no limits. But ironically, we enjoy true freedom only behind the fence—one that is established by the omniscient and omnipotent God to protect us and not just to bind us. These limits are found in God’s Word and are to be observed in our lives.

As Christians, we have found freedom in Jesus, but it is not without boundaries. We are not free to do anything we like. The exercise of our Christian freedom must not become a stumbling block to the weak. In 1 Corinthians 6:12, we see that our freedom should not cause us to act without self-control or respond in the wrong way. Let’s enjoy our freedom and let’s also appreciate God’s fence!

—Lim Chien Chong

bottom line: Christians are free from sin, but not free to sin.

Hmmm found out that Cindee is coming back from USA soon from her blog....and wow isnt that fast? Must prepare $ to treat cindee to some nice meals..
Sab oso coming back soon..haha.. its like cool.. good frens are all coming back soon.
So much has changed in the last few months... agains like i said.. from pre-army days to BMT days and now my fixed vocation days...so much has changed and affected me.. but God has always been here for me.. a pillar for me to hang on to for support at all times. But still man is weak.. God forgive me if i forget about ur blessings at times.. Keep me rooted to the ground.. focus on You :)

Today brought Ro to my net grp.. well Im hopping that she will like it.. eventually she finds my all my friends very friendly...in fact.. too friendly until she dunnoe how to react i suppose? keke.. but at least its a good sign..hopefully she will b able to join me on more occasions.. will she? :P
Today lesson was on the 'Big Bang' thing.. hmmm i dun recall being involved in the 'big bang ever at all...haha anyway..it was quite a good netgr today..wif chris playing the guitar..thankz mate~!
Tomorow will be a lazy day for me ... no need go work..then most prob tml morning go workout if i can wake up then go SIM lunchie wif Ro..then go Edge.. hmmm after tat dunnoe liaoz..
Well..this abt all..shd update soon again..i hope..tata

...S@YS Me!

posted by * ZhUo*ChOnGjI< * 12:53 AM

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:::Tuesday, March 02, 2004:::
Just Don’t Fit?

We’ve all been there at some point. Like a pair of jeans that have been in the dryer too long, we just don’t fit anymore. Maybe we feel this way with old buddies from school or the neighborhood. Our conversation is different, our ideas, our logic, our values. Maybe we dress differently, or listen to different music. It can be frustrating. But what if it’s with your siblings or parents—your own family?

I don’t have any easy answers. It’s difficult to be different from your family, especially when you’re living for Jesus and they’re not. It’s easy to want to distance yourself from them because it’s much simpler than to deal with the feelings that build up, or the angry, cutting words that can be hurled your way.

Let me share two ideas that might help. First, ask God to remind you to be an encourager. Don’t aggravate them by fighting back. “Live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing . . . . For, ‘whoever would love life and see good days must keep his tongue from evil and his lips from deceitful speech. He must turn from evil and do good; he must seek peace and pursue it’ ” (1 Peter 3:8-11).

Second, remember that there is one place where you do fit, and that’s in God’s family. “You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus . . . . Because you are sons, God sent the Spirit of His Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, ‘Abba, Father.’ So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are a son, God has made you also an heir” (Galatians 3:26, 4:6-7). Yes, being a believer in Jesus makes you different—but not alone. That’s good news and a good fit!

Courtesy of Peggy Willison

Sometimes I really wonder whether I fit into people's life? Do i fit into my friends' lifes? My family? My love ones? Most of the time...Im usually worry about whether I will be of any trouble to them.. whether they can understand my thoughts which most of the time...they don't not even my family members.
And alot of times I doubt even the words of the people I ought to trust...
Worry...worry...these are just some of the negative side of a melancholy and all these brings about insecurity...stress...depression.
God...please help me in my weakness.. I can't do anything about them..

This week thus far has been relatively good for me.. so far no trouble at my new company yet.. and I pray there wldnt be any for me at all forever..
Really thank God for the people that had been praying for me...
Sometimes as Im resting or slacking away..I'm really amazed at how God planned out my life thus far...all the experiences, the favor... God really gave me a life which has been really eventful thus far. Pray that for the rest of my life... God will set me on something which was promised to me.. something which I at times always dreams of..

...S@YS Me!

posted by * ZhUo*ChOnGjI< * 11:23 PM

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:::Sunday, February 29, 2004:::
Really tired.... dunnoe why Im still online now... its freaking 1am~! well it sounds not too late...but for me...Im real dead tired.. Had a long day...yet eventful day. My mum though cautious yet has no objection of me & Ro...really glad..
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...S@YS Me!

posted by * ZhUo*ChOnGjI< * 1:10 AM

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